A Loose Shadow Take a deep breathto draw in your shadowtil it touchesthe bottoms of your feet.There it will stayuntil you cut it loose againto wander. That second star to the rightcasts little enough light to find your way to morning, yet somehowall the shadows feel like homein the dark. It’s so easy to fadeand… Continue reading Poem: A Loose Shadow
Lessons of 2020: Good Boy Syndrome
Hindsight is 2020, right? Well, even though it’s almost in the rear view mirror, I’m left facing some hard truths. Thanks to a Brene Brown podcast, I stumbled upon something I didn’t have a name for… the so-called “Good Boy” or “Good Girl” syndrome. Apparently this was driven into me at an early age but… Continue reading Lessons of 2020: Good Boy Syndrome
Poem: Another Step
Another Step Torn apart once again,I collect the piecesand count the missing,losing more each time,wondering when enough is gonewill the world take notice.Back together,I can feel the holesas wind blows throughand tickles what’s left.Never whole, always lookingfor the parts left behind–the memories, people, and thingsto remind me where I started–as I take another stepto start… Continue reading Poem: Another Step
Wrapped around the axle
Every now and then I find myself stuck. Mentally. It’s like a process gets loose in my brain and sucks up all the available resources so whatever’s left has to pick up the slack. I know there’s more there. I just don’t have a way to purge that runaway process sucking system resources. I find… Continue reading Wrapped around the axle
Checking in… August 2020 Edition
Yeah, I know it’s nearly the middle of August, but I feel the need to take a step back and look at where I truly am after a few super stressful weeks. This has been a bizarre year with COVID-19 and all the changes that it forced upon the world, but it was the last… Continue reading Checking in… August 2020 Edition
Poem: Ghost
Ghost I have becomean afterthoughtin my own life. Called if needed.Summoned like a daemonto assist their needs. Dismissed as quicklyas the wind. Put back on a dusty shelf,to watch and listenfor another chanceto feel alive. Wondering onlyif I did enough,I drift back to a ready stateand wait for the next call. Thinking that a life… Continue reading Poem: Ghost
Gut Check: Am I the villain in my own life?
This question rose from my gut today… Am I the villain in my own life? And it’s a good one. Let me explain. I have long felt like I am holding myself back on a number of fronts. Things get uncomfortable and I don’t want to push forward. I find myself waiting (sometimes forever) for… Continue reading Gut Check: Am I the villain in my own life?
The Battle to Minimize Self in an Expressive World
Recently I had some time to reflect on the differences I see between myself and my wife and daughters. If you haven’t figured it out by now, I’m the more shy and reserved one. Haha. Though I started to doubt whether I’d truly renewed my introvert card while during the stay-at-home period of COVID-19, I… Continue reading The Battle to Minimize Self in an Expressive World
Leave Me Behind
Leave Me Behind I am always here,cheering you onthrough it all,good and bad. Never second guesshow much I love you,or wonder if Istill walk behind you. Be stronger than Orpheus.Resist the urge to look backas you press on. Fly far and fast.Sing free and strong.But leave me behindand know I’ll always be there for you.… Continue reading Leave Me Behind
The Fallacy of #alllivesmatter and My Cautious Steps Forward to Help
Let me preface this by saying that I am a middle-aged white American male. I was raised in a predominantly white neighborhood. I made my first Black friends in college and afterwards in the workplace. And I know that I might as well be one of the poster children for White privilege. In my heart,… Continue reading The Fallacy of #alllivesmatter and My Cautious Steps Forward to Help