This question rose from my gut today… Am I the villain in my own life? And it’s a good one.

Am I really Evil? Let’s find out…

Let me explain.

I have long felt like I am holding myself back on a number of fronts. Things get uncomfortable and I don’t want to push forward. I find myself waiting (sometimes forever) for others to come to my rescue. And to their credit, sometimes they do. But those few times actually seem to prove my point.

Of all the roadblocks in my life, I am the biggest. But does that make me a villain?

Let’s look at the definition (according to Dictionary.com). Apparently a villain is…

  • a cruelly malicious person who is involved in or devoted to wickedness or crime; scoundrel.
  • or a character in a play, novel, or the like, who constitutes an important evil agency in the plot.

So far as I can tell, I’m not malicious, wicked, or evil. Guess I’m not evil.

What am I to consider myself then? A foil? Perhaps that’s my issue.

No, not THAT kind of foil…

Again, going back to Dictionary.com, to foil something is…

  • to prevent the success of; frustrate; balk.
  • or keep (a person) from succeeding in an enterprise, plan, etc.

Yeah, that seems to be a better fit. I have a million things working in my favor right now and yet I’m dragging my feet. I’m literally balking at my own success.

Forbes had a great article a few years ago offering 48 Ways to Get Out Of Your Own Way and Start Making Real, Lasting Change In Your Life

Guess I’ll go read it as soon as I’m done wondering if I’m a villain. HA!